So I was thinking about
What i'd write to you
It's been three
Days since I heard your voice
And I aint been right without you

A one night stand and a photograph
Made its way to you
I took a chance
Paid the consequence

This is why I'm writing to you.
Was it a big surprise
Is it too late to try
Go ahead and cry
It was just one little lie

I hope that you don't mind
I'll make it up this time
Is it too late to try
It was just one lie

Baby I think I owe you one
Every time I come around your ready for the letdown.
Here I sit alone it was my fault I know.
If I were you I wouldn't take me back
Just let me down

Its not hard for me to say the things that you do
You bring out the best in me
When its not the best for you
It's been a long time since I didn't know
What to do
Where to go
Could we forget yesterday
Start over again

Was it a big surprise
Is it too late to try
Go ahead and cry
It was just one lie

Baby I think I owe you one
Every time I come around your ready for the letdown.
Here I sit alone it was my fault I know.
If I were you I wouldn't take me back
Just let me down. [X2]

You need to believe it when I say that I am so so so sorry for the things I put you through
Never meant to take the trust from you [X4]

Baby I think I owe you one
Every time I come around your ready for the letdown.
Here I sit alone it was my fault I know.
If I were you I wouldn't take me back
Just let me down. [X3]


Sincerly,
The white tie affair (and Sera)

I am vindicated I am selfish I am wrong, I'm right I swear I'm right, Swear I knew it all along. I am flawed but I am cleaning up so well, I'm seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself.

Spent the whole week (getting sick) and Making shit for money in Gallitzin.
Come home, and all seems well.
Loadsss of dishes, but what ever.

Walk into my bed room and there is a Steel Reserve can on MY night stand.
(Today, he says Kayla spent the night for school....)
but why the fuck was she drinking beer any where near my bed.  All of our entertainment is in the living room. There is no fucking reason to be in my bed room. none. what so ever.
Found a shirt that Didn't belong to me a little bit later.

Go to the bathroom...
Sitting on top of the trash is..
Tampons that don't belong to me
Resin
Stems
Bandaids
Bloody Gauze?

I have no freakin' clue what happened here this week but he either needs to fill me in on information about Chanel or Kayla or who the fuck ever. OR we need to give him a lesson on how to hide shit from me.

Because Paranoia will get every human on earth in the end.


Now, if you read this, don't take it the wrong way.
I don't think he's cheating on me.
But he is being shady.
Although I would have to slit my own throat if he was cheating on me with Kayla, no offense to her but c'mon.

Ugh, Blah, dslfidsnfiodsafds.

This makes me feel slightly better, not enough though, I need to find a stress reliever.



Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in, winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing
So hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am...